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so this week was awesome. we worked so hard this week, but i realized that we have been working in the wrong way. we didnt have any success last week. or this week. and so we have now decided (after three weeks of nothing happening) that we need to work with the members more. i am glad heavenly father is very patient because our plan of how to get success after two weeks of no success was to work harder. wich made us feel better about our work, but we still didnt have any success. and yester day after church we litterally passed out for 2 hours because we were so tired.

so we decided to try and work smarter. and it really makes sense if you think about it. there can be 4 missionarys in our ward, or there can be a ward full of them. so hopefully this week we work smarter instead of harder. because we worked as hard as we could last week.

one thing i have noticed this week is that in the inbetween moments of our lifes, when things are good. but not great. and not the pits either. just those inbetween moments not the highs not the lows. it is easy to question, if your testimony is still there. if you have one at all. then the hard times hit and you only have your testimony to keep you going. or the high times when you walk around all day doing exactly what the spirit tells you to do.

in the highs and the lows you feel your testimony. but then you hit the ruts and you can start to question. 

i have found that those moments suck. sorry if you thought i had some advice for you. but i am only 19, and not that smart. so sorry i cant tell you exactly what you need to do in those moments.

 some thing that helpes me is to just keep pushing on and that you will hit a high or a low and then you can go from there.

i love you all. hope you have a really great week.

elder arkoudas