i have started this email three times trying to be clever but none of them worked. so we are just going to go for it. we meaning me.
no matter who you are the lord is always ready to give you help. even when you forget you need it in a sertain aspect of life.
there was a time when some one hurt my feelings. it was a pretty good story i wont bore you with the details, but basically my feelings were hurt and i dont think they cared. anyways i would tell this story to people because it made them laugh and i like it when people laugh, but everytime i did it would remind me of the hurt feelings and i would feel the same anger all over again.
anger isnt wholy conducive to a representative of the lord, and this last week i told this story to my companion. he laughed and i got angry again about how i had been treated. the next morning i flipped open a study guide to the doctrine and covenants and looked at the table of contents. two sections stood out to me. one about forgivness, how to feel forgiveness. and the other i dont remember but it sounded cool and like something i would enjoy.
after thinking about it for a second i chose to read the section about how to feel forgiven first. in this section it said that the best way to feel forgivness was to forgive those who had wronged you. well that hit me like brick. and not like a bolivian brick either. this was an american brick.
*side note*, bricks in bolivia are mostly air, because they are cheaper to make that way. so the clay is pencil thick and then it is mostly air inside.
i realized that i still hated this person for the way they had treated me. i wasnt totally sure how i was supposed to forgive them. i didnt believe that i could just forget those feelings of hurt and anger. but i kept reading and after i finished that section i realized i could just treat forgiveness like faith.
by that i mean that if i just showed a desire to forgive and everytime those feelings surfaced, if i told myself ididnt want to feel those feelings and focused on other feelings i would eventually forget them.
the best i can think to describe it is like pretending... but in a good way. if you pretend to believe, or act like you do believe. doing things like reading scriptures because you want them to be true.or saying your prayers because you want someone to be listening. you are showing heavenly father that you want his help in your life. you want that faith, and then over time thatt desire to believe will turn into belief.
if you want to learn more read Alma:32. but dont read it just to read it. read it pretending like you have to give a family home evening lesson about it. trust me it helps out a lot.
other things that happened this wek is i got sick. like couldnt leave our house sick. but my compi tells me he got sick like this once and after that he hasnt gotten that sick again. so hopefully my immune system does its job and remembers this sickness. cause i do not want that one again.
also i saw a spider about the size of an egg (sorry Rebecca Oborn) not just any egg either. this was a AAA farm grade chicken egg. honestly the worst part was that i was in a lesson too! so i had to just sit there! the investigator saw it a little while later and went and killed it. so its all good now.
thats about all i can think of. oh we went to our wards talent show. we sang called to serve in spanish and english. it was pretty neat. well thats al for now
Elder Arkoudas
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